entirely unmotivated

i have been on the job search as of late. it is however only a search, which often means a serious load of down time waiting to hear back from potential jobs. i'm not umotivated to have a job, trust me, it totally sucks not having a job when you are looking for a job. i have so little to do, i just get bored. the things im unmotivated to do are the very things that i could be spending much of this extra time in my lap doing: reading, writing, playing music, learning to speak a dead language, etc. pretty much all of things that i wont have any time to do once i do have job. trying to find work is lame. im trying to be a bit selective and not just jump at any ol' job that comes my way. i really want to get some kind of experience in the educational field. the problem is i dont really have any experience in the ecducational field, so my hirability isn't exactly at the top of anyone's list. i have been avoiding writing on the blog for so long. no real good reason for that avoidance except a void of desire. there has been a lot happening in the last few weeks but i just haven't felt any urge to write about it....wait for it, nope, still dont. maybe if i get a little fire in my belly i can post something about the trip down to so-cal i made with merle and our four day layover on the way back up. please pray that i will have favor in finding a good job.